I got you...

I go to the chiropractor often. They do not do the typical adjustments with the horrific cracking, and twisting like traditional chiropractic medicine. They use a tonal adjustment instead which I love.

I went to the chiropractor the day after a therapy session. I've been working on understanding my family dynamic, and why we are the way that we are. For years, I've been trying to be closer to my siblings and my parents. If the world was perfect and we were a happy family, they would be my support system. But that isn't my reality.

I went into my appointment carrying that confusion and unsettled feelings. The weeks prior to that appointment, I wasn't to the point of processing when you come to terms with your trauma. I felt like I was still gathering the pieces together. From the outside, it probably didn't look like I had some deep heavy feelings, but I sounded like it.

The first half of your appointment they adjust you while you lay on your stomach. Then you flip over, and that is when all of the emotions I was carrying was released. I was laying on my back and she placed two fingers in the middle of my chest, and her other hand was on my stomach. I don’t know what she connected but, I let out a full sob. I quickly slapped my hand on top of hers and just let it out. She reached down and said "I got you."" I laid there crying like I haven't cried in a while. I hate the term ugly cry, but that’s exactly what I did. I couldn't catch my breath or even open my eyes. There were other people around trying to relax and I was over here just bawling my curly little head off.

She then but her hand on my chest, I took a deep breath, and she said "Breathe in deep. Right here." I calmed down and she finished with my adjustment. Afterwards they do a final check when you're sitting up, and she told me to take a deep breath again. She kept one hand on my chest, the other was on my back. I felt secure and strong.

Of course, I apologized, because we for some reason, as a society, have decided that showing emotion is something to be ashamed of. She told me, "Don't be sorry. Those tears have been earned. You are working hard and that was your bodies way of releasing that energy." She gave me a hug, which of course I loved, and she sent me on my way. I walked out feeling like I could finally process and come to terms with my family dynamic.

This was my take away. She was my strength when I couldn’t be that for myself. She said, "I got you." Meaning, she was going to help me carry the load I was presenting. I was letting out the heaviness, and she was there to help me lift it. I felt relieved and calm. I can now say "I got you." to those that need me, and mean it. When others present to you with their heavy loads in life, be the strength they need. She didn’t take on my grief or pain, but she just gave me the boost to keep going.

Crying is linked to our nervous system. So when we are too stressed, we physically cant cry, and crying is a form of detox. I have talked at length about my chiropractor and the help they have been to me. They have created a place for my body to relax and release the pain that it has been holding in for years.

They are part of my self care, and because of them they have helped guide my body to further healing. If your body is reacting for some unexplained reason, check if you're stressed. Our bodies cannot distinguish between past and present. So when you are anxious your body is having a physical reaction thinking its in the present. I have suffered for years with weird unexplainable pain in my back, neck and shoulders. I've also had tension headaches that feel like every muscle on my head is being twisted. Imagine you're wringing out a sopping wet towel… Yeah. It sucks.

If you are carrying something heavy, I'm sorry. Who do you have that can let you release that pent up energy? Who do you know that will say "I got you"? Let them help you. Reach out for help.