I've paid my dues...

The acne on my face is so out of control. I mean I'm 30. I thought I paid my dues as a teenager. But guess not.

I was told by a trusted friend to get my stool tested. (insert unassured nod) I mean is that really the answer? Probably, but I really was just looking for a new skin regimen. I want to think its hormones, or stress that's making my skin freak out.

How do you know what to do? Is that what wisdom is? Your brain now knows what all of these lotions and potions are for? There are people with beautiful skin. Like Jenna Dewan. She once did a video on her skin regimen and she said "and than.." like 15 times. She had so many products and techniques.. How? How do I learn how to do that? There's cleansers for oily, combination, sensitive, mature skin prevention. And the oils… and the serums… and the toners… and the moisturizers… and the SPF… What's with SPF after I've already put on makeup? I've read you're supposed to reapply… What is with all the different acids? What the hell is rosehip oil? How do I know what eye cream to use? Why are retinols so crazy? Should I be drinking a gallon of water? And what is a night time routine? Should I be massaging or is that going to give me more wrinkles?

*sigh* I have a bit of a dilemma. Who knows if all of these products will ever make my skin better. Having perfect skin to me does not mean, never having a pimple, but I don’t want to feel like makeup is a priority. Right now… There's not enough concealer in the world to cover every spot, and the dark circles under my eyes…. I could get a discount at the grocery store. Why do I even try?

Maybe I should get my poop tested…